Johore International Jamboree 2008

I've been shamefully neglecting my blog. It seems so barren.. Sorry!

Nyways.. I'm back from camp.


The camp was bad in terms of organisation, good in terms of people, and had terrible plumbing. We used lake water for dishes and the toilet bowls were rarely empty (no flushing - absolutely nauseating). I met some very friendly people and some real arseholes that acted like they've never seen a girl before. And the organisers forgot to put lots of things in English to ensure the internationals could understand. There was a really tall menara at the entrance - well done.


Day 1 - Felt really lonely. I was the only girl from my school. The tent broke. I stayed with the girls from SMK Pendeta Za'ba. Nice people.

Day 2 - Better. I don't remember much from this day.

Day 3 - Went to Pulau Kukup. Met Pulau Pinang girls from Jit Sin.
In the afternoon we couldn't go out for activities. There was some luncheon where they invited people from all contingents. After that we had to clean up.

Day 4 - We tried to complete the activities today, but there was one last activity scheduled for tomorrow. So we weren't allowed to do it. The contingent people scolded us for not finishing.

Day 5 - We did canoeing today. It was fun! Wasn't as scary as I thought. Skipped paintball though - it took so bloody long to wait. I went for a walk around the camp site while my friends waited and when I came back like, an hour later they were STILL where I left them. They said it was fun and really painful. And I wasn't allowed nyway - for 14+ only.

Day 6 - Went back.

Short summary of what happened. Not very detailed. But whatever. I'm in Penang now. Dad has some meeting. Will be here till December 1st.

Message to sue faye - a long, partial comment on her blog

Sue Faye, I could not disagree with you more. I love my secondary school life more than I could ever love that old hellhole of a primary school, although I strongly respect and also recommend it, because that is the treatment the young need to get them in shape and disciplined. Secondary school has shown me how restricted the world I lived in before was. And for one of the few times in my life, I finally felt like I fit in. It isn't very likely I will be changed and influenced a lot by people for the worse (not drastically, anyway). I am an adolescent, and not a child anymore. I do hope, after all these years, I have acquired a little knowledge, just enough to discern the good friends from the bad. And friends will never ruin you intentionally, not unless you pick the wrong ones to trust in. Admittedly, I have seldom trusted my close friends with secrets - too often they are suddenly spread far and wide. But then again, I have not been betrayed (that's a strong word, though) this year so far. And just because Jane was a b*tchy, stuck up, snobbish, gossipy jerk, it doesn't mean everyone is.

Refer to http://1995feel.blogspot.com/ if you have no idea what I'm talking about.

This is what I wanted to say in the last post. It has no relation with the one above.:
Straightfoward. I think you are being pathetically childish (you know who you are). Does being the society queen bee, or being the friend of one, affect your life that much? Thank goodness I've gotten over the stage where I needed people to acknowledge that I had 'power'. 4 years ago. Social life with peers have meant a lot since, though. And you needn't act high and mighty because you are a queen bee, a Kate in the Lizzie McGuire world. Take my word for it (it's not likely you will be given anything else, not the way your acting at the moment), people really couldn't care less. I hope it's a passing phase, because I really would like to be friends.

Another three things.. and a postponed post

First off.. early birthday wishes to my sister! Its on November 17th. Sorry I can't get you a present though.
Secondly, I'll miss all of you Form 5 n 6 people.. good luck in your exams and blah-blah-blah.. the usual stuff. But I really will miss you guys, especially in scouts.
Thirdly, I won't be here from Saturday to Thursday. I'll be at some Scout Jamboree in Batu Pahat. See ya.

And I have a lot more to say. About society. About my peers and snobbish and utterly childish (yes, more so than me) some of them can be. Unfortunately, my father is making gestures at me that indicate that I should cut my speech short. So until the next post! (probly tomorrow)

Another Poem

Just for kicks.

Anhedonic emptiness
Spears the lonely hours
She spends them weeping in her tower
Trapped where she cannot escape.

Eclipsed completely, she is the moon
To her peers' bright suns
And lonely she is
For no light can find her
Instead they render her imperceptible to the eye
In vain she hopes that she will be the darkness no longer
That one will lead her out
That she will be the one to shine
That life will bring her into the world
Where she can live again.

But time pasts: she ebbs away
Dust she becomes.
Unknown. Nameless.
And none care.

Three things that are really bothering me at the moment.

Choir practice, choir practice and more choir practice.
Not that I don't like choir practice. It's just that I would prefer to spend my last 2008 schooling moments with my friends. Not stuck in the APD room or hall singing till my voice cracks. I wouldn't mind if it were in the holidays. However, my fellow choir members are not of the same opinion.


Swimming lessons.

I HATE SWIMMING.
I hate it so much. I wanted to quit, then my mom scolded me. So I didn't quit. I told my mom how much I hated it.
My mom scolded me for not quitting.
Now I hate Fridays.


And at school.. my friends are breaking up. New cliques, new groups, new gangs. To some teens, friends are life. I sincerely hope I'm not one of them. I hate (there's the word again!) seeing my friends talk so sweetly in front of each other and rip each other up right after. Makes me wonder what they say about me (if they do say anything).