The Gouge-Out

"He has all the virtues I dislike and none of the vices I admire."

Is it normal to feel like you want everyone to know what you are intent on keeping secret?
For example, say you bought a new dress or shirt for your friend. You want to keep it a surprise but find, at the same time, that you simply can't resist dropping numerous, less-than-subtle hints so he or she finds out in the end. And it seems hard to stop short of telling him or her outright. Or, another more common example is that you heard a secret from someone and can't wait to tell your besties.
Perhaps, you might have a crush on someone but feel too shy to tell your friends in case they disapprove, yet you say lots of things to make them guess it.

Whatever it is, I'm trying to find out if this sort of feeling has been identified and named. If possible, I'd like to know what region of the brain it is associated with. Actually, does anyone else ever feel it? Am I just weird?

I think this is a kind of thing is intended to let others on without outright telling, to see their reactions and figure out if you should tell them. I'll call it the gouge-out.

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Not that any of those examples include me - trust me, secrets you confide in me are stored in very secluded parts of my mind that I rarely think of telling anyone else. It's my own secrets I feel like telling, but don't because pretty much no-one cares. I don't think I'm famous for ratting out people. Or am I? Maybe I just don't know it. But I'm rambling.

Anyway, I need someone to help me keep to my resolutions. Make me feel guilty. And I can return the favour when the occasion arises. I'll get a temporary person while I search.